a leap of faith by a girl i adore

Hey ppl, munmun have officially started work with a pro-photographer. She is understandably shaky about the whole setup, shifting from a stable and not so bad job to an apprenticeship-ish job that doesn’t really help with her monetary insecurities. In fact the photographer isn’t even bothered to assure permanent employment, one week probation my a** (pardon my French)
You see, munmun isn’t a person that one would feel extremely warm towards from the start; she used to be called ‘Ice queen’ in poly, (haha forgive me dear). But I have come to realize that she is the kinda of person one would say ‘more then meets the eye’. She treats her friends with respect and kindness, treasuring each and everyone of them, something that I am sad to say has yet to rub of on me. She never really holds a grudge on anyone that disappoints her or steps on her toes.
She is someone I will always want on my team, dependable, trustworthy, clear-headed, smart, and most of all, sincere.
So, the question whether she should be worried about her predicament now, I would say no, all she has to do, is what she has been doing for the past 22 years, seek perfection.
I have grown to love her as a partner, respect her as a teammate and co-worker, inspired by her as an artist, and I am not one bid worried for her, for I know she is more then capable in handling anything thrown at her and anything she set her mind in doing.

last few days

Helo, I have not been writing on this Blog the last few days, been a week? Should be around there. Anyways, I have been busy playing some online game that I guess some of you would have heard before, World of Warcraft, been playing it with Kaiz, very fun game, but very time consuming.
The last few days are just *play game *play game *play game…..very unlike me but I guess this would be a perfect example of how people change. I never liked playing games in the past, was never interested, never had the time, unless it’s with a group of friends in a Lan shop shouting at each other, I was not to be interested. But who is to know that I am now playing games even when I am doing it alone. People change. That’s what frightens me. I hate change, always did. I hate how your ideals change, I hate how your values change, I hate how your needs change, I hate how people change and yet I am more guilty at it then anyone.
My old friends from primary school or secondary school would see no change in me, physically (*moan) but only I know how much a change has occurred in me and everything around me.
I do not know if everyone experiences the same thing everyday. There is a war happening in my head at every one moment, almost to a point that I feel tired to think. Perhaps you might think that its starts from the moment I awake, in fact that is so far from the truth, I sleep with my troubles, what troubles? I have no freaking idea! I could honestly say I never had a really peaceful session of sleep in these past few years, everyday I wake up unsatisfied, frustrated and just plain pissed at nobody in particular. I go to wherever I need to be and a million things would just go though my mind, even when I am talking to someone I would be thinking of something irrelevant. Does anybody experience that? I was just thinking about what the horoscope keeps saying about my sign, Gemini, its says that I am a multi-tasker but I always thought that it was not true about me cause I could not do 2 things at the same time even if it kills me….but I came to light to me recently that I have been multi-tasking my whole life. I have always been doing something and thinking about something else at the same time, and its killing me.
I read in some article some time ago and i remember a quote, not too sure who said it but it was something that i could never forget.

" It would be bliss if you only eat when you eat and only drink when you drink. " - like a dog.
* i apologise if the quote is abit off its my own intepretation.