last duty...
Duty... today is officially the last duty I will have to do for this 2 yrs and 2 months national service. Mixed feelings….I think its due to the ‘graduation song’ by vitamin C that I am listening to now while doing duty, not sure if it’s a coincidence but this song always plays itself at every end of different phases of my life; back in secondary school graduation, poly graduation and now NS ORD. I guess some may think that this particular song is rather cheesy and over-used, but personally I think that many people are secretly in love with this song for its reminiscing qualities and the fact that it makes you look back at your life in awe. The next time someone plays this song, before you start criticizing about how over played the song is, look around – and you will see many with a bitter sweet smile subtlety drawn on their faces.
For me, the people around me knows how much I detest NS, these 2 years and 2 months felt like 10 years to me, I feel aged, I feel tired and mostly I feel bitter for all the change in me and the people around me, but in retrospect, I made a few good friends that I feel grateful for no matter how few. Nicholas for putting up with a childish selfishness and idiosyncrasies, and still manage to hang with me for so long, Marcus for trusting me enough to share things with me and listening to all the crap that I have to say, theories, Xiang long , for showing me what it means to have a goal, and for being a role model so I know who I wan to grow up to be. Khin mun, for just being the crappiest and most fun guy to be around with, though we may have perception that are worlds apart, views that would never meet in the distance future, but I always liked you as an individual, Felix for taking care of me when I needed help and for sticking with me through the harder days in scme. Cheers to these people of my NS life.
Now for the future, the problems will come but I believe more that ever that they are never going to bring me down. I am lazy but when the time comes for me to do what needs to be done, nothing will get me down. (if you haven realized, I am sorta saying all these as a self motivational attempt to make myself feel prepared.)
For me, the people around me knows how much I detest NS, these 2 years and 2 months felt like 10 years to me, I feel aged, I feel tired and mostly I feel bitter for all the change in me and the people around me, but in retrospect, I made a few good friends that I feel grateful for no matter how few. Nicholas for putting up with a childish selfishness and idiosyncrasies, and still manage to hang with me for so long, Marcus for trusting me enough to share things with me and listening to all the crap that I have to say, theories, Xiang long , for showing me what it means to have a goal, and for being a role model so I know who I wan to grow up to be. Khin mun, for just being the crappiest and most fun guy to be around with, though we may have perception that are worlds apart, views that would never meet in the distance future, but I always liked you as an individual, Felix for taking care of me when I needed help and for sticking with me through the harder days in scme. Cheers to these people of my NS life.
Now for the future, the problems will come but I believe more that ever that they are never going to bring me down. I am lazy but when the time comes for me to do what needs to be done, nothing will get me down. (if you haven realized, I am sorta saying all these as a self motivational attempt to make myself feel prepared.)
posted by guo wen at 11:27 AM
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