a day in a week
Hey guys,
today's a Wednesday, currently sitting in for a visit as a support for any Murphy's law. Its the middle of the week and it feels like a month has gone by since the last weekend. I met up with my frens in the weekend, really enjoyed myself, has been some time since i went out with them and boy does it feel like the good old days.
Just heard recently that my dad has to go opt. his heart's main arteries seem to have a 70% blockage, which according to my soon-to-be docter sis its very dangerous. He has to go for the opt to 'balloon' the heart, if i did not get it wrong. I am worried without a doubt but is it wrong to feel this?(i hope that my dad learns a lesson from this, his chain-smoking habits, his rich eating habits and his generally unhealthy practices.) He seems to be stopping all of these bad habits for the mean time.....but as usual..i dun know how long this would last....hoping his vigilance in keeping healthy would last for as long as possible.
Death, the end of life....not exsisting, the next journey. The most unexplored 'area' that man has been unable to cover. Is that why ppl fear death? As we all know this saying all to well, "men fear what they do not know." theoretically that should be why people fear death, they know nuts about it, it makes perfect sense, whats to happen to me? where will i go? is it pain? will i forget everything that happened in my life? questions....a whole library full of them. Is people going into religion to not feel scared? to feel that something so much bigger then anything that they knew would take them into his bossom and protect them to save them. To have this personal peace of mind that would help glorify their current life? I personally dun have a religion, i wish i do sometimes but i just could not convince myself to have faith. Stubbornness?
I have this feeling that i would die young, some would say a pessimistic view but its really more a feeling then a view for me....just deep down in my gut, i have this feeling that i will go early, not some painful illness i hope. But when the time comes, i dun think i will be scared....at least thats wat i think now....i think there would be hint of excitement in me that i would hate to admit due to the fact that admitting would actually be rather ungrateful to those who does not want me to go.....or at least i hope there are actually ppl who do not want me to go hahaha just kidding....i know i am very loved.
I know the way i would want to go, i want to go smiling and my frens and love ones wishing me the best. Abit sad? i dun think so, i would feel proud, i Want to feel proud.
Ok enuff about death.....lets get back to life shall we?....the one thing that everyone does so well so naturally. the hard part now for me would be facing life without fear.....i guess everyone needs a little help here and there...i have found my help not in the form of religion but in the form or a few really wonderful people.
poolopingdays......means being clumsy like hell everyday but bouncing right back up after a fall.
today's a Wednesday, currently sitting in for a visit as a support for any Murphy's law. Its the middle of the week and it feels like a month has gone by since the last weekend. I met up with my frens in the weekend, really enjoyed myself, has been some time since i went out with them and boy does it feel like the good old days.
Just heard recently that my dad has to go opt. his heart's main arteries seem to have a 70% blockage, which according to my soon-to-be docter sis its very dangerous. He has to go for the opt to 'balloon' the heart, if i did not get it wrong. I am worried without a doubt but is it wrong to feel this?(i hope that my dad learns a lesson from this, his chain-smoking habits, his rich eating habits and his generally unhealthy practices.) He seems to be stopping all of these bad habits for the mean time.....but as usual..i dun know how long this would last....hoping his vigilance in keeping healthy would last for as long as possible.
Death, the end of life....not exsisting, the next journey. The most unexplored 'area' that man has been unable to cover. Is that why ppl fear death? As we all know this saying all to well, "men fear what they do not know." theoretically that should be why people fear death, they know nuts about it, it makes perfect sense, whats to happen to me? where will i go? is it pain? will i forget everything that happened in my life? questions....a whole library full of them. Is people going into religion to not feel scared? to feel that something so much bigger then anything that they knew would take them into his bossom and protect them to save them. To have this personal peace of mind that would help glorify their current life? I personally dun have a religion, i wish i do sometimes but i just could not convince myself to have faith. Stubbornness?
I have this feeling that i would die young, some would say a pessimistic view but its really more a feeling then a view for me....just deep down in my gut, i have this feeling that i will go early, not some painful illness i hope. But when the time comes, i dun think i will be scared....at least thats wat i think now....i think there would be hint of excitement in me that i would hate to admit due to the fact that admitting would actually be rather ungrateful to those who does not want me to go.....or at least i hope there are actually ppl who do not want me to go hahaha just kidding....i know i am very loved.
I know the way i would want to go, i want to go smiling and my frens and love ones wishing me the best. Abit sad? i dun think so, i would feel proud, i Want to feel proud.
Ok enuff about death.....lets get back to life shall we?....the one thing that everyone does so well so naturally. the hard part now for me would be facing life without fear.....i guess everyone needs a little help here and there...i have found my help not in the form of religion but in the form or a few really wonderful people.
poolopingdays......means being clumsy like hell everyday but bouncing right back up after a fall.
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